Thursday, March 31, 2005

A Moment of Praise for My Wife & Thoughts

Something that I've not done yet is to speak really well of my wife. Lyuda is an amazing woman and deserves a moment of praise here.

First off, she's an amazing mom. She's taken to being a mother for our new daughter like a duck to water...and this is her first child. Avrora couldn't be luckier! Lyuda never flips out. She never gets angry with our daughter. I've seen so many first time mommies go nuts at some time in that first month as they get used to having their passenger become a the new family backseat driver. That's not my wife. Even in moments that would have embarrassed my wife to no end before she had a baby - the 3 ft projectile feces aka the Poopizooka - do not phase her: it blew away and upset the lactation nurse, but not my wife. Whether its three am or the middle of the day or whenever, she's always there for Avrora even if it means disrupting our own plans. Even if it was something she wanted to do. My wife is trying for patron saint of newborns.

Let me also say that my wife is still the most stunningly beautiful woman I have ever met. Her gorgeous green eyes are set off wonderfully by her long black hair. Her high cheeks are simply amazing and totally unique. Her figure, while a bit abused by carrying a Baird child, is snapping back rather nicely as she breast feeds and starts exercising. She can kiss and make me see stars. I love her. I try my best to tell and show her, but sometimes I feel that I cannot even come close to what I feel in words. I love her. I love her like I have never loved before.

In other thoughts, my wife wants to go on a trip in May or June. A road trip or flying trip. Either we're going to roadtrip to LA and Las Vegas or we're going to fly to LV. I have a friend there that I have known for a decade now - since college - that really wants us to come. She wants to meet Lyuda and Avrora very much. Suzanne is great, but a little...different. She's a chemist and married, but sometimes doesn't know when to leave comments "in the box". She's one of those that I want to do the phytomining business with, her and a female friend (Sarah) that's a biologist.

Avrora still hasn't decided on her hair color. She has a balding man's fringe around the sides (think Patrick Stewart's hair here) and back of her head that's very dark like her mother's and atop her head is blonde like her father's. Everyone keeps telling me that all of this will fall out and her final hair color will be revealed then. FYI, mine didn't when I was a child. My mother says that is really unusual. It would be very unusual if Avrora was blonde: there are no blondes in my wife's family AFAWK ever. Both the dark and light hair on her head is growing longer so neither looks like baby fuzz.

Her eyes are changing color. They were a dark, dark blue like all babies. They're lightening and seem to be taking on a green color. That's not a surprise considering my wife has green eyes and I have blue-green ones.


Saturday, March 26, 2005

Oy! What a bit of catching up to do!

Well, first off, sorry for not posting for so long. I've been rather busy with Baby Baird. Actually, I'm pretty darn tired as it is. Baby and Mom are down for a nap. Last night was the hardest so far. I'm sure that there will be harder, but in general she's a VERY happy baby.

First off, clearing up the name. Avrora Devika Baird was born on Feb 28th, 2005 at 8:17 am after an 8 hour labor and 20-30 minute delivery. She was 5 lbs 10 oz and 18.5 inches long. My wife moaned through the first 4 hours of labor saying that she wasn't built or meant to have babies. After the speed of having her first baby (labor and delivery here, folks), the Dr's and nurses came to me afterwards and told me to get my wife to the hospital ASAP next time cuz the baby was going to be coming uber quick.

How did she end up Avrora instead of of Aurora like I thought we were doing? Well, my wife pronounces it that way with her Donbass Ukrainian accent. She snuck it on to her birth certificate when I wasn't at the hospital. I caved. I've learned when to pick my battles. I just tell everyone that its the Latin spelling...which seems to confuse some Hispanics for a moment. How did we pick Avrora? Well, actually it was on my list originally of favorite names. However, my wife hated everything on my list when we compiled our mutual lists. She had one of her own...which she ended up hating too. She started hunting through literature for names. She remembered a favorite author (George Sand) was a woman and wanted to know her real name. One of them was Aurore. We discussed it. My wife liked it. We anglicized it. She then Ukrainianized (?!) it. Devika came about because it was really, really close to a nickname that Lyuda's mother had for her and her sister that came from the Russian word for little girl.

I just revealed to my wife that Aurora was on my original list that she rejected a day or so ago. She was stunned. Originally she was supposed to pick the first name and I was going to pick the middle name. Even though my wife technically picked the first one and I technically picked the middle name, it seems more like the opposite really ended up happening. *chuckles* A well...

Anyways, I've been off on paternity leave since the 28th. I'll be returning to work on the 4th. A lot of hairy stuff has happened in the project I was working on, but I'm actually glad to be standing aside at this point. The political nonsense just got too deep and I was going to end up lobbing a grenade at some point. My new, beautiful daughter has given me some perspective.

Tomorrow was her original date that she was supposed to be born. Had Avrora been born then, she'd have been a mongo baby on the order that my family runs to: I was the smallest baby at 8 lbs 6 oz. My brother was ~50% heavier. It's Easter tomorrow and I've done up some baskets already for my wife and daughter. I know I'll end up with Avrora's candy but it was fun to do our first Easter like this.

Anyways, I've started trying to get up at my old times (pushing back the alarm to 5:15 am again) and started exercising again as well. I've started reading the phytoremediation book again. I am planning on starting to read and right alternate history, sfnal stuff and ahf hud again. Time will tell how successful I am.


Tuesday, March 01, 2005

QUick Note: Baby born

Aurora Devika Baird was born at 8:17 am. She is 5 lbs 10 oz and 18.5 in.

Mom is doing wonderfully. Dad's tired.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Moved

My wife and I have moved. We're out of the old place and in the new one. The new place isn't as much of a tight fit as I was worried about. The primary things left to take care of are the book shelves (finding homes for them) and settling all my books into them. Beyond that, there's not a lot. I only have to sort out the DSL line.

We have her car!!! FINALLY! There's a tad bit of paperwork to be done, but none too big. In general, alles ist kosher. She loves it which was the point. We're taking her out for test driving this weekend. She can drive, but she's nervous in the area. The SF Bay area is far more scary a place to drive than NM or her native Ukraine to her. I'll see about a pict at some point, but its a lil red PT Cruiser (her choice). I'm far more a Jeep kinda guy and I kept my old one, but we needed something baby compatible.

We had another run to Labor and Delivery. Aurora wasn't kicking as much as she normally does. Nothing wrong as far as the Doc's see. We worried over nothing. She was in a sleep cycle. Given how tired we've been this shouldn't have been a surprise. Based on their lil meter that they hooked Lyuda up to, Aurora was kicking just fine. Lyuda just wasn't feeling as much.

I'm still sick. Along with the move, I just haven't been up to reading or doing much. I've kept up with the new Battlestar Galactica. I really like it. I think the sex could be toned back considerably without any loss for the show's quality, but other than that, it's a damned good show. It definitely has the zeitgeist of a near genocide of humanity down pat.

We have an interview with INS (or whatever they're called these days) on March 3rd. This is a biggie. I'm not too worried. I just have to supply them with all the same things that we've supplied them with several times now. *sighs*

I'm still reading the phytoremediation book. It's long. It's chemistry. I don't like chemistry. Never have. Never will. I'm more for a physics and computers kinda guy. That doesn't mean I don't follow it. It doesn't mean that it's terribly difficult. I just don't enjoy it. I'm slogging my way through though.

Next months reading list looks to be a little short: A book on the American Hegemony, an AI coder's book for games, and a book on interstellar exploration. We have to replace our digital camera and buy baby stuff so that eats into the book budget a bit.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

argh!

Ok. The wife and I have been sick. Really sick. Actually, I have been more sick than my wife has been since last Friday. She has been better since Saturday. Where as I have had no chance to relax or sleep and its been killing me: as soon as I get mostly better, I have to do something in the cold, wet and without enough sleep. I get worse again. :S

She did have something not so fun happen to her though. Last Thursday night/Friday morning, we had to rush to Labor and Delivery. We were there for 6 hours. What happened? My wife is having contractions. They're periodic. They're not very strong though. They're constant though. The Dr's didn't know what to do. Aurora seemed to be happy as a clam. So, in the end, they sent us home.

We're also moving! Cheaper apt. We were living in my bachelor pad and since we're about to have a baby saving dinero might be advisable. So we're in the process of moving. We're about 40% done. We'll get the rest in a bit. We're getting help tomorrow.


Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Back to the Grind

My wife is mostly better. She's not feeling well, but the fever has broken and we've beaten back the drips. We spent a good chuk of yesterday at the hospital checking on Aurora. The Dr misunderstood us when she was kicking less when Lyuda came down with the flu. Normally, Aurora kicks - at the minimum - of once a minute. When Lyuda got the flu, Aurora kicked once every few minutes. The Dr got upset with us saying that we should have gone to Labor & Delivery immediately. We called in rather than showed up and L&D told us take lots of fluids and Tylenol for the fever. The fever never went close to the temperature that they worry about (101.4) and Aurora was kicking over double their worry rate (5 kicks per hour). It's just a lot less than her normal routine. After the check and pokes and prods, four hours worth, they pronounced her fine and sent us home. Lyuda and I were a little irritated: the doctors kept trying to think too much about what we were saying rather than just listening. We're articulate people. I understand that not everyone conveys what they're feeling properly. Oh well.

Anyways, after the pokes, prods, and ultrasound, Aurora started kicking and moving like a demon. She REALLY didn't having the ultrasound or the microphones attached to my wife's stomach. She kept it up for hours afterwards. She was kicking hard enough it hurt my wife!

Anyways, back to The Grind today. I really need to get that paper moving forward again. It's about a 1/4 done. The deployment plan was done on Friday. So I don't need to worry about that.

I have thoughts on NASA, etc., but that will have to wait for another time.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

My Wife is Sick

She's not doing so well at the moment. I think she just has a cold that is being exasperated by pregnancy. It kept her - and me - up most of the night. I am planning on taking her to the doctor tomorrow if this doesn't clear up. I'm worried about her. I really, really love her and worry about our daughter t'boot. She seems to be getting better though. Right now she is sleeping while I clean and do dishes, etc. I put on Beethoven's 6th to help soothe her (it worked! Amazing!) and cover the sounds of cleaning in the apartment.

Speaking apartments, we didn't get the one we wanted. Alas. We are have clinched one of two others: its our choice which. One has a view of the SF Bay. It's not bad. We were going to sign for this one on Sat, but when we went in to look at it a lot of things that were supposed to be fixed were not. I'm less than pleased. The agent was REALLY less than pleased. She told us to hold our money and she'll see about getting it fixed. We looked at another one without the view but south facing. It has less that needs to be remedied. We've switched our preference. We have the cashier's checks in hand. The agent is salivating. She's just trying to dodge around to get what we want. I'm really not happy though with how this has played out. grr.

The phytoremediation book is progressing. A lot less notes. I have the chemist in this project working up a projection on the cost for the necessary environmental lab. She's supposed to have something on monday. I need to talk again to the biologist involved. I think this will fly and pretty well. I just need to get myself educated enough to play conductor, but not be the one of instrumentalists.

Anyways, back to cleaning.

Friday, February 04, 2005

Just a little too much today

We just moved my office contents from Berkeley to Oakland. The old building was considered unsafe because of the Hayward Fault. They built that building at LBL during the 1980s and it met the codes then. The codes have changed and are more strict based on the big earthquake in 1989. They found that the building I was in would collapse catastrophicly and prolly killing most of those inside. So! I lost my office with a window as they tear down that building. Now I have one in Oakland only. Effectively, I had one in each place, but officially only in Berkeley. No more.

They trashed a machine in the move. I am getting a new computer out of that. They damaged an LCD. New one there too. I was also too late to prevent them from packing the charcoal and pencil drawings that my wife did for me. The one based on a Kamakura period painting is smudged. grrr. They also broke a frame with my wife's picture in it. *sighs*

I am supposed to make three different calls today for making appointments and such. One is about the car. One is about the new apartment. One is about a trip to the dentist. Bah.

I have had zilch goof off time and I need a night. I've been cleaning or working or cooking or helping Lyuda with her homework. She's taking another triple of english classes. She wants to finish cleaning up her english because she has an accent and fix her grammar. Her spoken English and reading ability outstrips her written at this point. She wants to get a University degree from here in the States and wants to ace everything and to do that...;)

We took a tour of Kaiser's Labor and Delivery Department. Lyuda and I both almost cried. I've wanted to be a dad for a loooong time, but wondered if it'd ever happen after teh flaming wreckage of my first marriage and some very horrible things that happened afterwards. Lyuda is a little scared, but touched as mucha s I am too. We're excited, terrified and happy all at once.


Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Thoughts on _Collapse_

I have been giving _Collapse_ a lot of thought. I have to say that I am not so sure that accept a lot of his ideas. Let me go through this a little bit before I get into the whys. I am definitely someone concerned about environmental problems even though I am of a nominally more conservative bent. Well, that most that I live around at least.

Jared Diamond makes another attempt at being predictive in anthropology and history. He puts together a list of conditions that are predictors for if a society will collapse. The index of made up of the following: environmental damage, climate change, hostile neighbors, friendly trade partners, and a society's response to its environmental problems. As he goes forward through the first several sections of the book, he tries to point out where each of the failed or successful societies had each of his indicators tripped (or not). While this does break down later in the chapters - he doesn't talk about some of the indicators at all for some societies - he does make the attempt.

He starts out contrasting two dairy farms. One in Montana in the present day and the other in vanished Norse Greenland. Its a simple introduction that he outlines what he's getting at: that societies collapse through environmental problems and that we need to be really careful because we're headed down that path.

That leads into his discussion of the Bitterroot Valley of Montana in the USA. He started going there again on a regular basis for vacations with his family after having been there some as a boy. He seems to be enough of a regular that the locals have accepted him. He discusses the changes that have taken place in the environment since he went out there as a boy. Here he talks about the environmental problems that Montana, and specifically the Valley faces. He also discusses the changes that the people have seen and not been happy with: frex, the rich out of towners that have bought some of the land for their vaccation homes in closed communities. He presents four different viewpoints and positions through interviews of a fly fishing guide, a local real estate developer, a newcomer/"refugee" from Berkeley in California that is now a Montana state politico, and dairy farmer. He tries to make the case for Montana being a model of the world.

He then launches into discussions of past societies that have imploded, he states, through environmental issues. The first one covered is Easter Island. He does a fairly good job. Unfortunately, my knowledge of EI is rather limited, but it seems to match with what he states here. The EIers deforested the whole island and that pretty much screwed them but good. The next one covered is that of Pitcairn and the Henderson Islands prior to the Bounty's crew 'settling' there. Again, I know very little. It seems plausible enough.

He then launches into a discussion of the Anasazi. Here I have some knowledge. While I am not an anthropologist that specializes in that extinct culture, I lived in New Mexico for 17 years of my life. For 8 of them, I lived in northern New Mexico, specifically in Los Alamos, and walked the grounds of a lot of ruins there. In fact, it was a hobby of mine that I enjoyed. There are a lot of ruins there and in the surrounding mountains. All of them are Anasazi. The most famous happens to be what is now the Bandelier National Monument. That's the largest single largest concetration of impressive ruins. Its hardly the only one. Chaco's collapse is pretty well understood. Its rather well documented and even though there are some very controversial aspects of it, it is as he said, largely due to an environmental collapse. However, that's not what destroyed Anasazi civilization as a whole. He gives the impression that the center gave way and all was lost when the great droughts that would have destroyed almost any civilization destroyed Chaco. However, based on a lot of research, as I remember it, it was really the droughts that did it the Anasazi, not Chaco's fall. Frex, the environmental damage that he brings up in Chaco didn't take place in other sites (frex Bandelier). However, the drought did. The other places were then abandoned in the same time frame...when the drought crushed Chaco, which was already in bad shape, it did everyone else too. What was interesting in addition to all of this is that he has split societies that I could have sworn were considered Anasazi into multiple ones. The last book I picked up on the Anasazi had sites in the areas he has labeled as 'Mimbres' and 'Kayenta'. Those two are definitely in areas I remember to be traditionally a part of the Anasazi culture. Thena gain, as I said, I am not a Anasazist and I am not up on the latest research so its very possible that I am simply mistaken, but I began to wonder here about Diamond's accuracy and thrust.

The next culture he covered was the Maya. Drought and environmental damage was the collapsing agent for the fall from the so-called Classical Mayan period. I really don't know enough to comment. What he says is plausible. That might be his danger though: what he says is plausible, but not entirely accurate.

He then launches into a discussion of the success or failure of various Norse colonies. The ones covered in passing are the Orkneys, Shetlands, and Faeroes. Iceland is covered in some depth. These were all the sucessful colonies. Vinland is covered in some depth, but not so much since there's not a lot known. The most discussion is given to the Greenland colonies. There were two: the so-called Western and Eastern Settlements that should have been called north and south since they were both on the western side of Greenland. He gives a lot of discussion as what life was like in Norse Greenland. It was fun and interesting. He also gives his theories as to the demise of that society after existing for nearly half a millenium: Inuit hostility, the Crusades destroying the market for their main exports, the Little Ice Age, environmental exhaustion (clearing the forests and destroying pasture), and an inability to adapt to their new circumstances (ie not adopting Inuit techniques for hunting food).

He rounds out his discussion of past societies by a chapter on successful ones. The first is his true love of the New Guinea Highlands. The second is an island called Tikopia. The third was actually Tokugawa Japan.

He then moves on to modern societies and what's happening their. The first one goes through, what he feels, is the root cause of the genocide in Rwanda was that it was really a Malthusian problem. He provides data to back it up in the form of statistics about the decreasing farm sizes. He then goes through the history of Hispanola: Haiti and the Dominican Republic. He then walks through China's current environmental issues. Then he thoroughly thrashing Australia. In none of the cases does he take the stance that you are going to see an Anasazi style collapse. However, he fires off warning flares in a big way.

From there its the so-called practical lessons section. The first chapter is about why societies make bad decisions. Its interesting but nothing earth shattering. It boils down to a lot of 'NMP' (Not My Problem), other values (yes, values) and decisions that are net negatives. An awful lot of it seems like 20/20 hindsight rather than really helpful. He then alunches into a discussion of 'Big Business' and the environment for the next chapter. He goes through the whole discussion of the oil, hardrock mining, coal, logging, and seafood industries. Surprisingly, and a bit delightfully, he actually lays the blame for environmental problems not on big business, but on the public.

The next chapter, The World as a Polder: What does it all mean to us today? is a juicy one. He outlines twelve issues that must be fixed or addressed. I'll give very short quotes here:

1. "At an accelerating rate, we are destroying natural habitats or else converting them to human-made habitats, such as cities and villages, farmlands and pastures, roads and golf courses." pg 487

2. Overfishing.

3. "A significant fraction of wild species, populations, and genetic diversity has already been lost, and at present rates a large fraction of what remains will be lost within the next half-century." pg 488

4. "Soils of farmlands used for growing crops are being carried away by water and wind at rates between 10 and 40 times the rates of soil formation, and between 500 and 10,000 times soil erosion rates on forested land." pg 489

5. "The world's major energy sources, especially for industrial societies, are based on fossil fuels: oil, natural gas, and coal." pg 490 These will run out.

6. "Most of the world's freshwater in rivers and lakes is already being utilized for irrgation, domestic or industrial water, and in situ uses such as boat transportation corridors, fisheries, and recreation." pg 490 We're running out of freshwater.

7. Photosynthetic capacity limit. "...we are projected to be utilizing most of the world's terrestrial photosynthetic capacity by the middle of this century. That is, most energy fixed from sunglight will be used for human purposes, and little will be left over to support the growth of natural plant communities, such as natural forests." pg 491

8. "The chemical industry and many other industries manufacture or release into the air, soil, oceans, lakes, and rivers many toxic chemicals..." pg 491.

9. Alien species destroying ecosystems. "The term 'alien species refers to species that we transfer intentionally or inadvertantly, from a place where they are native to another place where they are not native." pg 492

10. Human modification of the atmosphere. Ozone layer, global warming, etc. pg 493

11. Population growth out of hand. pg 494

12. Population's impact on environment. pg 495

He wraps up by saying he's actually cautiously optomistic.

My favourite juicy quote:

"People in the Third World aspire to First World living standards.
They develop that aspiration through watching television, seeing
advertisements for First World consumer products sold in their
countries, and observing First World visitors to their countries.
Even in remote villages and refugee camps today, people know about
the outside world. Third World citizens are encouraged in that
aspiration by First World and United Nations Development agencies,
which hold out to them the prospect of achieving their dram if they
will only adopt the right policies, like balancing their national
budgets, investing in education and infrastructure, and so on.

"But no one at the U.N. or First World governments is willing to
acknowledge the dream's impossibility: the unsustainability of a
world in which the Third World's large population were to reach
and maintain current First World living standards."

Chapter 16
The World as a Polder: What does It All Mean to Us Today
Pgs 495 to 496


Okay, some general thoughts.

Throughout the book, he comes across as disliking complex societies. They fail, often, in his view and are thus unsustainable. The adoration that Diamond gives to the New Guinea Highlands society seems to bleed over here. It seems to me that this isn't just his issue, but one that antrhopologists often develop: the society they are studying becomes superior to their own PDQ. I've seen it for those studying Native American cultures, Arab cultures, and others. Alas.

He's very dismissive of new technologies changing the circumstances that lead to this, that or another problem. I can think of one that immediately changed things: the electricity. The air quality in London in the 19th century was, well, killing people through coal burning. Electricity helped change that. In the future, fuel cells could fix one issue PDQ. Another would be the now beginning deployment of phytomining and phytoextraction. These could really change how we mine metals. There are others that will have as much of an impact.

I have to say that I simply don't buy what he's saying. His collapsing societies were always in ecological marginal regions. If he could have picked, say, the Roman Empire and proven it or one of the Chinese Dynasties, then his point would ahve been accepted far better. My favorite juicy quote is another good example. Just doing the math some friends of mine online pointed out there's a lot more capacity out there and that efficiencies can be brought into the current system without too much of a problem that will fix a lot of what he's complaining about in the form of unsustainable resource consumption.

It's not to say that I don't think there are not problems that desperately need fixing - that's putting it mildly! - but rather that he is panicking too soon and drawing the wrong conclusions from the wrong places. He's extrapolating from a data set that preagrees with his hypothesis rather than a more generalist one. In essence, he's saying the whole of the earth is now an ecologically marginal habitat and I don't buy it since he failed to prove it in my mind.

The book was a good read and I recommend it just for the thought provokingness, but I ask that you cross check and think about it rather than take it as a bible. it might be better to pick it up as a paperback when the time comes. I was lucky and got it as BDay present from my wife. :)

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Getting some personal overload at the moment.

First, we're trying to move. A new apartment is needed with Baby Baird on the way. Second it'd be nice to save some dinero with Baby Baird coming. We're negotiating our way into a nicer community but its fraying me at the edges with Lyuda inquiring all the time how things are going (she's in class most of the day) and everything else going on.

Second, we're trying to buy Lyuda a car. My Jeep Islander is not a baby mobile. We're going to keep the Jeep. However, we need another one. I'm not having fun here at all. She ahs her preference. it looks like we're going to get it. We'll see. Dickering != fun.

Third, she's back in classes. *I* am effectively doing the dictionary retrievals for her. Makes getting anything else done when she's doing her English rough.

At work, I've been working on two papers and a deployment plan. One that I planned on doing profiling the cluster file systems available for AIX and linux. The second is that I am effectively, but prolly not officially, collaborating on security requirements for center wide shared file systems. The deployment plan is to cross-mount lustre between two systems. It's been the bane of my existence. Let's leave that there lest I say something in a blog that I will regret later.

I am done with _Collapse_. My BSometer went off at the end. I'll summarize in the next few days his twelve major points. I promised to do that on alt.history.future, but I got snookered the past few days at lunch into debating work related issues. It just happened again today a few minutes ago much to my annoyance.

I started the phytoremediation book. I already have two pages of notes and a page of thoughts. I have a seperate notebook for this project and I am trying to keep each area in it labeled very distinctly. If the ratio of notes and thoughts to pages read holds up, I am going to have about 35 pages of notes and 15 pages of thoughts. My intent is to base the business plan off of these notes and thoughts. We have a bsic working model for one, but it will need to be refined. Interestingly, there are two sites in the US already using phytoextraction for mining nickel. Fascinating. There are three companies that are working in this space already that would be direct competitors that I have found. Unfortunately, they look like they're better pedigreed than we will be. They already have some of the best research universities in the field sown up. I suspect that's because they were spun off from those U's, so licensing those U's genengineered plants will be difficult at best. The book notes for some applications you simply must use genengineering. I don't have the queeziness that others might so we'll see. None of the other competitors seems to have the same model for business either. We'll see if I'm approaching this sanely or not by the end. Don't worry, I'm not base everything off of one book. I have 12 in the queue and then I'll be doing interviews.

I've been also working on getting individuals stoked about the Primer from Stephenson's book. Basic idea's on how to impliment it or at least a prototype have come together. I'll have to start hacking sometime relatively soon. The funny part is that its not the hardware that's really hard. It's the adaptive and instructive story telling that is.

Friday, January 28, 2005

What I Really Want From a Political Party

This is not a short rant, so I'll start it one day and get it finished as I have time. The theme this time? What I want from a political party. Let me stress this again: *a* political party. Having to split my vote all the time sets back what I really want quite often: one way I sorta get what I want and the other only sorta get what I want. Keep in mind that I am sometimes "Out There" in what I want. Somtimes there are contradictions and how I resolve them isn't always easy.

I want a political party that is technophillic and very fond of funding science. This means that knowledge and discovery are high on the party's areas to fund and one of the last to be cut. That means that the Department of Energy, NASA, NIH, and NSF get enough money to keep the US as the primiere source of scientific discoveries on the planet. This means making sure that there is enough money to pay for those researchers. This means there is enough money to fund university research. This means there is enough money for the scientific national labs to do quality work and pay competitively. This means NASA can have a very robust robotic exploration program and an exciting manned program that compliments the robitic and acts as a source of pride and prestige that doesn't require smacking other nations to get. In this day and age science and technology are life for a nation. The US has a unique culture in that respect in that we have many multiple tracks that science can be explored. Each has different emphases. Each has different strengths. So long as they are given enough money, they have cranked out vast amounts of discoveries and often awe inspiring ones at that.

I want a political party that is extremely pro education. This means from day care to college and graduate school. Education ought to be a right, not a priveledge. Every child, every man, every woman ought to be able to get the level of education that they are capable of. In an ideal world, everyone would have a free college education. I have my qualms over letting anyone become an English major, but I suppose that's difficult to justify otherwise except that liberal arts majors - at leas tlast I checked - didn't seem to do well post college on average. I do have my serious qualms about the primary and secondary levels of education in a big, big way. However, that will be a rant for another day.

I want a political party that is pro military...but not necessarily pro defense contractor. I have worked for defense contractors and all too often I have seen them suck the life out of projects with intentional blood sucking. There needs to be serious reform on the part of the procurement strategy for the military. We need equipment that is the best in the world. We need it pronto. We don't need to be sitting there developing fighters for 20+ years (*cough* the F/A-22 *cough*). That plane should have gone into production and devliery ten years ago! Soldiers are the important ones here and delivering equipment that allows them to do their jobs well and effectively happens to be the most important thing: not the jobs in the congressional districts, not anything else. Just the lives of the men and women that are called on to be at the sharp point of battle.

I want a political party that thinks about the interests of our nation in foreign affairs. This means that it is not afraid to go it alone when it needs to. This also means that it ways the consequences of doing so and finds them acceptable. It also means that working cooperatively ought to be at the top of our list and only as a last resort going alone ought to be done. It would not have hurt the Bush administrations goals to have waited six to twelve more months to go hunting in Iraq. Saddam could not have proved that he had disposed of the WMDs. To do so would have invited in the Iranians or others to smack him in the region. The inspectors would not have had the proof that they needed to say he disarmed. That would have likely succeeded in placating our European allies that we have gone the extra mile and that we were in fact justified to smack Saddam ourselves. I doubt we would have had German or French ground troops, but we would have had a lot more support after the fact. Obviously that was a very bad call on the part of Shrub's political team and it could have been far, far better had it been done differently.

I want a political party that is green, but not capital Green. I can see the damage being done to the environment. I can see that we need to get away from oil. I can see we need to greatly increase our efficency and introduce recycling in a vastly greater scale than we are already doing. Additionally, I have concerns about the marginal land that has been put into production for agricultural purposes. At the same time, the antinuclear attitude has gotta go. It's far cleaner than even solar (ever looked at the manufacturing process and the nastiness produced from it?) The amount of radioactives that are released by coal burning than ever done by a nuclear power plant. Well, except for perhaps everybody's favorite example of stupidity, Cheronobyl.

I want a political party that's moderately liberal in its social policies. In my ideal world, the government would stay out of people's lives altogether or as much as possible. However, as has been demonstrated by history, to guard rights, ironically, you have to have government involvement. I'd like to be a libertarian, but I can't say that it'd work in reality at all.

That said though, I have to say that I want a political party that is emphateticly for personal responsibility. If you're an adult, you're hale and healthy, why in the world are you depending on anyone to take care of you. The goverment sure shouldn't be! I don't want the nanny state. I was living in NM at the time of the infamous MacD's coffee incident. The woman did get bad burns. It was because of the coffee and its temperature. It was also her decision to put it between her legs as she was driving in traffic. That was a situation that was entirely her own fault: its VERY likely you're going to have to stop suddenly. The fact that she was rewarded for her stupidity and cries of victimhood.

I want a political party that thinks before it leaps, doesn't analyze something to death, and even acknowledges that there are possibly no good answers, but something still must be done. It needs the honest foresight then to realize that fixing things down the line as best as possible can be done and will have had some plans to do so.

I want a political party that is pro legal immigration. Those individuals that work their way throught he nightmare of the immigration department shouldn't be as penalized as they are. Those that are illegally here shouldn't be tolerated. Frankly. Should we have an open border with Mexico? If Mexico is capable of controling its borders in a manner that we like, si! However, they're a bit touchy, understandably, about things that they are told they have to do. I am not a fan of the Border Patrol at all.

That leads me to my whacky political view: I'm an expansionist. Yop. I'm all for moving those borders outward. I am not for conquest and annexation. I am for voluntary unions. Mostly. In an ideal world, I'd love to see the US, Canada, Mexico, Carribean, and Central America united. Perhaps with Britian, Australia, Japan, Korea, Ireland, Polynesia, South America, and Phillipines tossed in. Even Indonesia too if we could figure out how to fix the massive problems there first. The one place I'd consider just outright annexing is Haiti. The place is a mess and needs serious help that it won't get otherwise. So, at any rate, I'm an political extremist whacko in that sense, or so I was labeled by an individual on alt.history.future.

That's it for now. I'll write some more another time and add in more details then.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Oops

I've been neglectful here lately. Life has been a little too crazy at home and work. I've also gotten into my bad habit of starting a VERY long post and not getting it out the door in a timely manner. That's coming, but I'll get something out relatively quickly.

We just had CFS come in for a meeting yesterday. We raked them over the coals for some things. I have some issues with the way they support their product. It's a little too hackerish for me. Are hackers - as in the basement coders that are classically and unkept - bad for coding projects? No. Not really. Are they really good to depend on when you're hanging in there at 4 am and the whole center is, well, down on its knees waiting for a patch? Not really. CFS are good guys. They know where their bread is buttered (not here). They do have a future as it seems they're working out their issues. Whether it arrives or not I can't say. I can say though that for them the future is not now.

My paper progresses. I've layed it out and written about a 1/4 of it, I think. I'm going to purposefully not draw conclusions. I'll do a summary instead. That way people can get an idea what matches their own multisystem file systems.

Last night I ended up getting home after my wife and found she wasn't home. I got some goof off time after I made dinner: some kasha, potato and pork soup. I thought she'd be home realtively quickly. However, I've found that when she takes off with this particular friend, she doesn't come home between 8 and 9. Next time I am going to spend that time on something a little different.

My reading of _Collapse_ continues. I have some doubts now. It seems that he has been picking out ecologically marginal habitats and pronouncing that they are good descriptors of ecologically nonmarginal ones. If he could produce an example of a society that collapsed because of ecological reasons in, say, Europe or North America (nonjungle) or some such, I'd be more willing to go along. It's not to say that some of the things he points out are things we should ignore, its just that I think his thesis hasn't been proven well as yet. Right now, I am reading about modern China. We shall see, but he's losing ground in the convincing game.


Monday, January 24, 2005

Thoughts and a Matter of Fact Letter

My reading of _Collapse_ continues. He's blown through the Anasazi and the Maya now. He's discussing the Norse colonies. He touched on the Orkneys, Faeroes, Iceland, Vinland, and is now talking about the Greenland colonies. I am still reserving judgement. It's a good read. I have to wonder about the accuracy. While I am not up to date on the latest on the Anasazi, there seems to be some differences in what I remember and I have walked the ground on a lot of sites there (since I grew up as a teenager in New Mexico). Some of what he says makes sense, some of it doesn't jive. We'll see. I'm almost half done with the book.

Aurora keeps Lyuda (my wife) on her toes. She seems to take talking to her as a sign that its time to play. We started a family tradition that I would talk to Aurora when it was bedtime. Way back when in that first trimester, it seemed to make Aurora calm down and let Lyuda sleep. Unfortunately, it has the opposite effect now...and those kicks are amazing. I am surprised Lyuda can surive them, really, over a prolonged period like she has. Increasingly, I am thinking that "The Miracle of Pregnancy" is surviving it.

My wife and I went looking at new apartments on Sunday. We found some we like. We actually found one we really like, but we're going to have to see if we can bid a move in sooner than another couple. We found this rather nice place that seems like a resort, but will save us about $600/month. With a baby and a new car coming, that's nontrivial money for us. Also we'd like to be able to save for a house. Given the cost of housing in the Bay Area that might be a tall order to fill.

Speaking of the house, I've been tinkering with a design for one for some time. I keep playing with new designs and working them into what I'd consider finished enough to turn over to an architect. The basic styling is taken from Byzantine Empire Church architecture, esp the churches and monastaries from the Mystra style and from Thessalonica. However, there is a lot of bits stolen from elsewhere: Art Nouveau and the Adirondack lodges contribute nontrivial amounts. There are also some oriental influences, but not too much. The one I am working on now can be built is stages. If we do it here in Cali, then we're going to have to do that. Land is about $200k/.5 acres. :S

On a very different note, my brother spent 14+ months in Iraq. He was a part of the 2nd Armored Cavalry Regiment. He was a cavalry scout and rode around in an armored Hummer. He was involved in partoling Sadr City and then he was sent in at Kut and Najaf. He was promoted twice Over There. He was seriously wounded at least twice that I know of and even had his picture in the ~Oct 28th edition of Time: he was mourning a friend that died in an ambush.

I remembered an old letter he sent me. This is a year and change ago. It was a very frank admission of what soldiers feel in combat. Or at least he did.

What's up big bro? How have you been? I hope as well as I have been (ha). My little camping trip was cool as sh*t. We found tons of weapons! We captured a bunch of Feydayeen dudes to include a two star general and kill some people that were a part of Bin-laden's group. On a down note we had many bullets, RPGs, and even 11-14 mortar rounds dropped on our camp (that sucked), had a chain of IEDs (bombs, 120mm mortars) blow up next to us on the side of the road. Damn that was a rush (it was just like the movies. Shit falling from the sky. Everything goes dark with all the dirt in the air. The shockwave tosses you like a cannonball hit you. All sound stops for 15 seconds, possibly the L O N G E S T 15 seconds of my life! Its hard to put on paper how it really was. I'll tell you about it when I see you but all in all (other than getting knocked out a few times) it was good shit! I had a great time! But now we're back in gay ass Baghdad where all that ever happens here is every once in a while an ied or firefight.

God, listen to me, I sound like a psycho! I don't know. The intense feeling one gets when engaged in combat is unparalleled by any other - the rush, the elegant chaos your self in opens your eyes, reveals a different world where all fear falls away, leaving you wuth the acceptance you could die while in this strange equilibrium of understanding, allowing you to move out and execute with divine prejudice. Its a different platform, level if you will, no sympathy, no tenderness, no compassion, no mercy, you're only left with yearning the pure desire to violate, disfigure, fracture, deface, sever, to force the union of your enemy and his timely death. It's really hard to say what I mean. In short, it's a good feeling. Well, I guess, it leaves the rest of your life seeming sooooo uneventful Ok, so maybe I am a little nuts :)

Now he's back, married and even out of the army. His wife is finishing her degree in teaching - she has a semester or two left. My brother is thinking about taking up a life in the wine making business. They live in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I hope that he has a more peaceful life from now on, but I truly hope that he remembers his service though with pride. I am very proud of him.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

A Night with the Russians

Well, they weren't really all Russians, truth be told, but that was the language mostly used. My wife is a Ukrainian (well, her citizenship is. She's three quarters Ukrainian and one quarter Russian). Her first language is Russian since she comes from the Donbass Region of Ukrainian (the so-called Left Bank Ukraine) where the population has been largely Russified. Two of her friends out here are actually from Kygyrzistan, but are ethnic Russians. One has a husband that hails from Moscow. The other is a Yankee like me and works as a professional librarian. The others were an interpreter that hails from Russia proper and her very asimilated son. We congrugated at the Muscovite-Kygyrz home for their baby's first Bday.

Their family is an interesting one where every single person in the family has a different passport: the father a Russian passport; the mother a Kygirzistan passport, and their child an American one. Apparently Russia states to have a Russian passport their son's mother had to have a Russian passport! It seems the father being Russian is not sufficient.

The Muscovite doesn't seem to like me much. I've tried being friendly as much as possible, but it just doesn't quite click wth him. He's ranted to my wife in the past about Germans...I look rather German. In fact I am quarter German. He was especially uncomfortable when he came home and his son was curled up between my arm and chest on the couch sleeping. Attempts to talk to the Muscovite didn't work out too well.

The librarian and his wife are just...weird. The librarian is just plain dull to talk to. He doesn't try to be very social. He'd rather sit and watch. He's rather like a potato. Unfortunately for him, his wife bad mouth's him alot. A lot a lot. The truthfulness of a lot of her statements has been called into question as of lately. My wife and I are starting to feel bad about the situation he's in and quite possibly doesn't even know that he is. *shakes head*

The interpretor is always a lot of fun. She's funny, friendly and outgoing. Her son is in college and he has quite the personality, is very outgoing, mostly socially adept, intensely curious about the world, and could bridge the gap between the Russian speakers and the English speakers even better than his mother could. He's about 21 and a pre-law student. Pasha's welcome in my house anytime. He made a very good first impression. He and I ended up talking a lot with the librarian while the Russian speakers went along talking about a lot. Pasha and I ended up talking for a long time without the others. He's intensely interested in intellectual property and its related law. I made some suggestions. We had a good time.

My wife and I didn't get home up about midnight. We were there for seven hours. It was fun once Pasha and his mother came. My antitalnet for languages bit me here too. Alas. :( My wife couldn't sleep after we got home. I got an hour or two of uninterrupted sleep. I thinkt he Miracle of Birth/Pregnancy is surviving it. At the rate we're going, I'll be lucky to have a second child with her.

Anyways, very little accomplished other than work. I have a paper that I am writing on cluster file systems. I've scoped it such that it will not be a political landmine for myself, but still is useful for work. Everything is political. :S Maybe I can help things along without taking a bullet this time.

_Collapse_ has only advanced a few pages. Easter Island is all but done.


Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Business, Books, and Writing.

The word for today is 'philopolis'. The origin is Greek for tribe and city. Why is it the word for today? The reason is that I have been writing a lot of alternate history in the last few years. One of my biggest and most ambitious projects has been writing about an alternate timeline where the Byzantine Empire (aka the Eastern Roman Empire) revives from Morea. Instead of Constantine being the last Emperor ruling from Constantinople and falling to the Turks, Demetrius does and leaves the more capable Constantine in Morea. Specificly, the aim for that TL was to get Machiavelli over to this revived BE/ERE and explore his writings under the new Morean Empire. It's been fun, but very, very hard. Since I tied the knot last summer, I've not had the time to do as much writing as I used to. This alternate Machiavelli is about to emark on a history of the Roman Empire (which the Moreans and indeed even the Byzantines saw themselves as up until the end) - much like his history of Florence that Mach did in OTL. He's going to come up with a odd ball nation-state concept. We'll see how it plays out. I'm haven't started writing this episode as yet. I like to play with the ideas first.

_Collapse_ remains interesting. I'm up past page 100. He did a tour of the Bitterroot Valley in Montana from different perspectives and now is in the midst of discussing Easter Island. I was delighted with the discussion of the statues and how the locals, ticked with Thor Heyerdahl being unwilling to talk with them about the statues, went and raised one for him. I'm about a fifth done with the book. I'm guessing Sunday I'll finish. Then on to the phytoremediation book.

That leads into the whole business thing. I've been discussing that with chemist and biologist friends. They're keenly interested as are some professors that have been doing research in the arena. I'm the one far back on the learning curve and I am playing catch up. I'm setting the pace though, so I have some control. Amazingly enough.

The second business with potentially some more lucrative prospects is jsut getting underway. We shall see. I've been talking about it with my father since he's a genius with electronics, esp with respect to miniaturization. I'm also talking with others. We'll see what we can pull together. If this takes off, expect to hear of me big time. heh heh heh.


Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Getting that habit started

The interesting things that I have read, seen, done, or thought about this weekend.

First off, there's the whole bit of excitement over Huygens. Wow. All I can say is that I am really impressed. This is just awesome. ESA deserves a lot of kudos. NASA too for making it possible. I'd have to say that a series of rovers, balloons, and dedicated orbiters are definitely in order now. If I were NASA, I'd consider taking the follow-on to the JIMO - Jupiter Icy Moons Orbiter - to Saturn with balloons to map and explore as much of Titan as possible. It could carry the balloons to be released and landers and/or rovers for specific targeted areas. Possibly even submersibles! Woo!

My wife and I picked up some board games. We played the heck out of chinese checkers and it was her first experience with it. She's really good. She LOVES to play too. We've also been playing Risk, chess, checkers, and numerous others. She spots patterns really quick. The reason we picked up the games is that she is REALLY pregnant. Our baby (tentatively Aurora) is due on March 27th. My wife is a pretite woman and the baby has been a lot rougher on her than planned: she's gained 50% of her prepregnancy weight and been sick a lot: hormone poisoning, not transmitable stuff. Even so, we're both really excited, if a bit scared.

I've been obsessing a little over Neal Stephenson's _The Diamond Age_. Well, specifically over the Primer. I think it's just become feasible. I'd LOVE to have one ready (ha!) for my daughter at age 4. It's a possibility for a business at least. We shall see. My wife loves the idea.

I finished _The Complete Roman Army_. I'm reading _Collapse_. An engaging read. We'll see where he goes with it.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Comments & Reading List

I am going to try to get this up so I can write each day. Getting myself into the habit is going to be a bit of a challenge. I suceeded in getting myself to work out each morning. It took time, patience, and a lot of grumbling, Bare with mea s I get this started.

Right now I am reading _The Complete Roman Army_ by Adrian Goldsworthy. It hangs together a lot of things I'd read elsewhere in several different sources. It's a pop history book so it should be taken with a grain of salt for possible mistakes, but so far it's been a good starter book.

Prior to this in Jan I read _The Diamond Age_. There were a lot of giggles in there. Chemists have pointed out to me that the rod logic hud makes for excellent explosives. Doh. However, the Young Lady's Illustrated Primer has definitely caught my attention: my wife is pregnant and we're about to have a baby girl at the end of March.

Next I will be reading Jared Diamond's _Collapse_. It ought to be interesting. Ever the controversial author, Diamond often hangs onto theories that are dismissed by those in the anthropology field. I'll dig up an example and post it if anyone asks.

After that, I have a book on phytoremediation to read. Some friends and I are exploring a business in this area. It's long and prolly dull as dirt, but we'll see. My preference is to get back to reading books on rocket design, but that has a steeper $ curve than this does and I have more people interested in funding and working on this one. So! For the next 6 months I'm going to be swallowing and cross referencing bio books prior to writing the business plan.

I occasionally write as well. I have participated on Usenet for over a decade now - Yikes! - and in the last prolly 7 years I've participated in a counterfactual history group and spun some yarns. I currently have one I spinning, albeit slowly right now, about a surviving Byzantine Empire and Machiavelli's interaction with it. After this, I'm prolly going to shelve alternate history for a while. The future is looking a lot more interesting. Prolly before said baby has started me thinking very strongly about the future once again. I do ahve some partially finished books - as in written - that I should go finish.

At any rate, second post!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Here it begins

I seriously doubt there will be a large following for this blog, but you never know.

I have to say that I've not kept anything like this for some time. Back a decade ago I started something like a blog, but we didn't call it that, on my own webpage and updated it. I ran out of time and technology has certainly overtaken what I used to do. This is definitely far easier to write than the old vi and html methods of a decade ago. ;)

That said, I'll start off with some thoughts in the next few days. Ideas and ramblings that all of you will enjoy, take potshots at, or ignore as you please. Whatever you do, be honest, but openminded.

until then.